My biggest setback

My biggest setback in dual recovery has been repeating the same mistakes over and over.  I tend to do this a whole bunch.  Even though I may be managing my psychiatric illness in a healthy and constructive way, I tend to engage in pure insanity.   I know better than that.  I am moving forward today, though.  I am putting one step in front of the other.  I am looking forward to a future with a wife, children and a job that makes me happy. I know I can do it.  In fact, I have faith the God of my understanding will lead me to this place in time, with patience.  I just don’t need to go where angels fear to tread.  I need to slow down, take my life for exactly what it is, and relax.  And I need to learn from the past.  Life is not a game.  Life is full of choices everyday.  Today, I choose recovery… I choose the solution.   And, I am working toward the solution everyday now.  I want to overcome the insanity of repeating the same mistakes over and over.  And I will, in time, with patience, with help from friends.  I have faith I can.  I will overcome my biggest setback.  Peace, Andy